and to add to my desire to move to mexico, all of the carmonas that i've seen/talked to on facebook seem to be loving, ACCEPTING people.. which is something my family in minnesota LACKS now. they might've been more supportive, loving, and caring back when my grandparents were actually alive- but now.. the only one i can really count on for care and support is my grandpa's nephew. i know the rest of my relatives are just dying for a reason to condone their carelessness and are probably like, "OH! SO HE'S THE ONLY ONE SHE'S GOT NOW?! I'LL REMEMBER THAT NEXT TIME SHE CALLS!" no need to express your fake incentive of "care"- nobody gives a damn anyway. you displayed that every time you wouldn't answer the phone when the emergency room called you- you were too busy to give enough a damn to check on me also (except joe). which is why my mom pretends to "care" about me- because then people can't compare her sad examples of "care" to anybody else's because :o THERE AREN'T ANY! really.. just mind your business and let me live my life. go play checkers or something with amy if you get so damn bored. you could also play with your dogs. an idle mind is the devil's playground.. UNDERSTAND THAT QUOTE AND YOU'LL GET EXACTLY WHY I DO THE THINGS I DO. which is precisely why i've ALWAYS wanted to move from this opportunity-less state. take your sense of entitlement and actually do something constructive with it. i say that to amanda and my mom.
amanda should've just did as she told my grandma she'd do. then everyone wouldn't have seen what a shitty, careless, and selfish parent my mom is because i wouldn't have had a reason to open the can of worms/her shitty excuse of "parenting". no turning back now, you're just proving to be just as negligent and selfish as my mom is. must run in the family (on my mom's mom's side anyway).
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